3 weeks and 3 days already..
and 4 more days are our 1 month anniversary... woohoo!!!

wow..
time really fly faster than we though..
already 3 weeks plus we couple..
sad..
happy..
we already taste before..
and we keep growing days by days.

although we just can chatting through Instant Messaging..
but..
i feel that we're sweetest couple in these whole wide world..
we have endures many obstacles,
we already taste the bitter sweet of our relationships..
we also always flirting in front of the computer too. ^^

well i really enjoy the moment we been together..
slowly understands you is the best part of it.. ^^
having such a wonderful 'daughter' together.. ^^
although you always says i pampered you a lot..
but come to think of it..
i want to have a sweet memory for both of us..
rather than we quarrel for something small... ^^

yising..
im really happy..
for this sweet relationship we having now ^^
i really hope that we can last long ^^
sometimes i really thought bout marry you though.. ^^

well.. i do really hope..
in future..
i wanted to ask you this question...
yising, may you marry me??

......
after meet the dentis...
after he help me pu ya...
actually is just a lit bit pain only...
but de ma zui zheng is make me feel very pain...
_(T_T)_......
anyways when i see he care for me...
pain also zheng de _(^_^)_

i da really love him so much...
he is de best
he is de best in my heart now
he is de best chu le my family
he is de number 1 ^_^

i hope time really can pass more fast
so tat i can meet him ASAP ^_^
if can i hope tat i can stay at kl with him more longer...
haiz....

dear,

my da ben dan

i love u so so so much ^_^

muax ^_^

da ben dan???
who is da ben dan???
da ben dan is my beloved...^_^
i love da ben dan so much ^_^

he very sayang me ^_^
no matter how i angry or how i playing with him
he also won't angry me...
i love him so much ^_^

but sometime i will very angry...
bcoz he really don't know wat i'm feeling...
wat i'm thinking...
sometime he can't get wat gal thinking...
but for me...
sometime i will sad for tat
but sometime i nvm for tat
i just forget it...

he is my best da ben dan ^_^
i love him so so so much ^_^

if u r me,
did u hope u can get this type of bf???
for me....
I'M SURE I WILL ^_^
I LOVE U...DA BEN DAN ^_^
YOU ARE THE BEST

da ben dan ^_^

wo ai ni ^_^

sometimes..
i do really feel stupid for the things i done..
haih..

truthfully...
when she sad, i feel annoyed
coz the reason she feel upset just one..
she sad for the things that i tell or talk to her..

actually she have the right to feel that..
especially the feeling of jealousy..
i don't really know what she thinking now..
just know she feel annoyed when i talk bout her name
but..

just hope that shes OK soon..
then we can play the game we usually play when we both online.. ^^
our xiao ke ai vs. da ben dan
^^
really miss the game though

yising..
get well soon

lies.
for me..
sometimes is a good tools of verbal weaponry..
but sometimes..its deadly..

meanings of lie in Wikipedia.org
lie is a type of deception in the form of an untruthful statement with the intention to deceive, often with the further intention to maintain a secret or reputation, or to avoid punishment.

for the first time in my life..
after 20 years life in this world..
someone..
other than my mum..
cried for me..
because of something...
that i think is dangerous to let her know..
so i decided to not to her..
so that she wont think much,think in a ridiculous way...
that can cause casualties and harm to our relationships.

just what have i went wrong in my mind?!
we should be truthful and now..
ended in this kind of situation that hard to twist back into line
yesterday is another tragic..
for some reason my cousin using my aunt's MSN account to ask me'... who is xiao ke ai??...'

seriously..
im near blow out in front of computer already
and till yesterday night..
at my cousin's wedding..
she told me that is my cousin using her account and not her. =.="
and then my aunt started to ask bout her, my girl...
tell her every tidbits bout her and me..
and i tell her 1 word before i started the conversation'..
seriously.. you all cant insure that what i tell wont spread around..'
and thats the reason i seldom tell them my stuff...
coz i don't want the case like my cousin, Artisha and me happen again..
spread rumors around for something untrue
i dont want yising involve in my family business...
i don't want her ended like Artisha..
when i close to Art, sure someone mumbling at the corner there..

life in my family is hard huh.. ^^
but this is the fun part of it..
and i wanna keep yising in my heart..
and pray that my aunt wont spread rumors around.. *praying hardbut somehow..
i feel relief after i tell her bout yising.. hehe
although she tell me..
'... ah loong.. you're so stupid..'
but later she says..
'... you both happy then is OK la...'
after her words..this face was around me all the time..
^.^

well i don't really mean to hide things from her..
but truthfully..
many things she cant know..
hope yising understands it..
and maybe..
just maybe..
disaster may happened again...

am i do the wrong things....

am i tai ye man....

tai wu liqu niao....

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

really no idea now....

wat shall i do...........
somebody can help me......
wo bu xiang continue like this......
i don't wan lose him...
i know he care me....
but i really can't tahan.....
low CW!!!!!!!!!
wat shall i do baru can win u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat want to cry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hen xing ku........
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
_(T_T)_..................................

today's my birthday.. woohoo!!
but i dont feel like happy though

argh.. sad sad

later after xiao ke ai asleep,
client meeting.. zz bored

after that..
cut my hair.. MAYBE
if got time left.. sad

then..
go to some cousin's wedding party.. sweat

and now..
for some reason, xiao ke ai angry..
well i know shes not angry actually..
is just little bit jealous..

or maybe she did really angry to me?!
NO IDEA!!! xD

well this year birthday are the sweetest so far.. i think..
coz...
my dear do this for me.. xD

nice right?? wakaka..
this one need to show off ones... ^^

other pictures bout my presents will upload soon. ^^

now is his birthday
but he didn't online now...
i hope i'm de first person who r say"Happy Birthday to you"
but i think i can't now....

wish u:
ALL THE BEST IN YOUR FUTURE
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

today whole day lonely...

morning time he teman me...

after 1.25 pm i become lonely...

19.3.08 is he first day for his last semester...

hope he enjoy his first day...

i glad tat he like tat bday present...

is really happy to hear tat he like tat present...

shui ran easy to do but after finish my finger is pain...

today i do another diff style...

is more hard...

and after finish my finger very pain...

bcoz need to ikat baik baik ikat very tight...

but after finish feel very man zhu ^_^

i hope time pass more fast...

now feel very lonely...

_(T.T)_...................................................

dear...

ur schedule is start from march to july...

tue,wed,thus,fri,sat...

5 day a week...

when is de best time i going to kl......

and......

how u come to penang at june...

ur schedule is so full..._(T.T)_............

start from now until july....

so full......

and this semester also is ur last semester...

very improtant for u...

_(T.T)_...............

dear

i'm so happy to hear tat...

u want to do urself(present)for me ^_^

shui ren it's easy to do but...

for u maybe is hard to do...

so i will do it myself...

bcoz i don't want u lang fei jing sheng at this type of thing...

and thx for so care about me...

i mean this morning de thing (i suddenly...)

i really do love u ^_^

I LOVE U...DA BEN DAN ^_^

nothing to blog, nothing to brag...
but my beloved call me to blog at here.. ^^
so this just a simple one..


well today....
when i inside the car, on the way driving to college
i heard this song..

whatever it takes by Lifehouse

when i listen that time is already end of the song already
but it reminds me of someone..
someone named moh yising...

i can say that song kinda reflect bout we both...
well let the lyric talk bout it...
the story bout me and her... ^^
enjoy..

Whatever it Takes - Lifehouse

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes.

hope that we can be like this song..

whatever obstacles or challenges..
we face it together
no matter whatever it takes,
give each other a chance
and sure we can go through this
no matter whatever it takes.

I LOVE YOU... XIAO KE AI.

who am i....
he celebrate birthday...
but i don't know at all...
why...
why u don't let me know...

i feel sad...
i feel very sad....
i feel wanna cry...
but i can't...
i can't..........
i can't do anything now...

i didn't beside him...
am i good gf for him...
jiu lian her also beside him...
but not me...
i feel useless....
_(T.T)_............

yo yo yo...
im back from Langkawi!! ^^

well..
many things has happen actually...
fun, crazy, but most of the time.. im missing SOMEONE...

moh yising...
i damn miss you..
since i step in the bus at Tuesday
looking out the window..
im thinking only one thing... YOU
when eat, before sleep, while smoking..
whatever i do...
all in my mind was you...

still remember when watching sunrise..
on Wednesday..
wake up after brushing teeth and bath..
after taking my breakfast..
having my cigarette..
looking at sun...
how i wish....

you was beside me and accompany me looking the sunrise..

that time i was near to cry already..
coz that scenery was nice and all i thinking is you...
lying at the chair..
taking puff by puff...
just cant resist the feeling of missing you...

i know we are suffer....

but..
i hope we can last longer...
although cant accompany you most of the time..
but what i hope is we can cherish every moment we have...

although our relationship are vulnerable to end just a finger tip at anytime
but what i wish is that i can give you the happiness that you want at most of the time
i just hope that.....

sunrise at our hotel resort

just besides the sunrise, i saw this..
2 clouds are 'kissing' each other

how i wish you were there saw this clouds..

my beloved..
he going to vacation tomorrow...
4 day vacation...
i'm become lonely...
alone now...

long distanted love is really hard...
all is changlle...
we need to blv between us...
tat is de only thing we can do...
anyways..he really very sayang me...
watever i say he just say "yes" "ok"...
i'm glad to meet him at my life...
thx,lao tian ye...
i'm really very appreacite...
thx..

hope to meet him as fast as possible....
hope 4 day pass as fast as them can.....
enjoy ur 4 day vacation,my beloved....

our first blog entry..
or should i say is my first entry at here

well i call him to write his blog first...
and now is my turn ^_^

erm..
as he say i hope this blog will be more private to both of us..
especially for me..
bcoz of my family..
but feel like wanna share both of our sorrow and happiness to everyone here.. ^_^

well intro lil bit bout myself..
yising,19,from Malaysia,fat,ugly,short as in only have 152cm...
haha..my beloved more taller then me :P
of course he must taller then me ^_^ haha..

and erm..just a simple reminder...
as my dear say..
my English are LIMITED STOCK
means erm..
not fluent in English...^_^
so hope u all don't mind ^_^

well me and my dear hope you all public drop comment after read it...
thx lo ^_^

our first blog entry..
or should i say is my first entry at here.

well she called me to write first..
so i just follow her orders and write a blog. ^^

although we both expect this blog will be more private to both of us
especially me of course..
well after some unwanted questionnaires.
but feel like wanna share both of our sorrow and happiness to everyone here!!

well intro lil bit bout myself..
wei loong, 20, from Malaysia, taken away already, short as in only have 172cm...
[many mores to come.. ^^]

my beloved??
well let her do her part...

and erm.. just a simple reminder...
my darling's English are LIMITED STOCK
means erm..
not fluent in English i shall say... ^^

well i hope you public drop comment after read it...
^^